Today I am going over my emotional twists and turns.
Within the last week my emotions have emotions have been radically changing from one to another. One second I am happy then it shifts to sad, then anger, then self hate, then no feelings at all, and it just keeper rotating through every emotions one person can feel. The part with it, right now, that is driving me crazy and off the hinges is the pace of the emotions. Changing every second it, literally even second. 1 second each every time,
Yes I am bi-polar and have a lot of emotional problems from my past but I thought my medication were help with it. It's just recently that shit started going fucking crazy. I still haven't had of my trauma flash backs either so I truly don't understand what's going on.
I have scheduled doctor appoints as well and even my psychiatry doctor to figure out this mess, even though I this whole mess started with my brain cancer location.
Honestly, I am wondering why Giai/God has put this on my shoulders when I was already down in the first place. I am begging them to make my life just a little tiny bit easier, even though I know that will never happen. I just tired and fed up with certain things life has thrown in my face. I need a break from myself and everything else at this point.
If you are having emotional issues to just remember that I am hear to listen, even if my head is being a tw*t.
All my love to you out there,
Brittany
