What is my brain doing?!

Weird thoughts and rhythms have been going through my head in rapid order. Causing songs to play, then change to a different one, at some point decides to put a poem it decided to come up with.  Then continuously repeat with multiple different patterns of the same things. Rapid start of song, then new song, with randomly a poem it thinks I should keep. Repeat, repeat, repeat… Just ugh….. I, at least wrote one to try and get my brain to shut down. Didn’t work but I tried. I will share it with you.

Tick…. Tick…. Tick…. Tick…. Tick…. Wha, what the fuck?…. Tick…. Tick…. Where is that coming from?…. Tick…. Tick…. Tick…. Tick…. Tick…. *quiet voice: it’s coming…. Tick…. Tick…. Tick…. *quiet voice again: you can’t stop it…. Tick…. Tick…. Tick…. *quiet voice once more: can you feel it burning…. Tick…. Tick…. Tick…. Tick…. Tick

I hope you enjoy that. My heart goes to everyone, much love to you all.

Brittany

Forgetting or forgotten

 Days like today really drive me bonkers. My brain always struggles now, due to surgery, to remember things. Some days better than others. Like Monday I remembered all that I needed to get done- scheduling doc appointments, dental appointments, balancing check book, pretty much just getting things done for the day. But slowly through out the week I started to forget things left and right. Well today so far has been the hardest for me. As soon as I woke up I had realized that I completely forgot to right down what I was planning on doing for the day, which does set my days off. So I had no clue wtf I was doing. Slowly certain things popped up but disappeared immediately after it popped up. So about half way through each thing I was doing (laundry, art room clean up, even eating) I would forget what my goal was or what I was doing. After chemo and all of that, things are just a pain sometimes. Usually I am good at the start of almost every week (not always) but this week feels like my brain just stopped functioning. Shit just me working on this, I forgot I was working on it until my son pointed out to me. *hand palm to forehead*

Just ugh… That is all.

Much love to you all!