Hello all humans,
Just needed a way of kind of venting today. This week my depression has hit hard in a form that I haven't felt for a very long time. I call it the numb sensation; I am over all feeling tired from this all of it. However, deep inside I feel no emotional feeling. It's a strange feeling that I haven't had since I was self-harming in middle school and high school. Which the self-harm was placed there to actually feel something, not suicidal attempts but just desperately wanting to feel anything that would bring me back to my actual self. So, at this point I am wanting the pain because it's been lasting so long. Yet I know I won't be self-harming any time soon due to the fact that I don't want the vivid scars that come from it. What I want for the pain now is beautiful art permanently attached to me and shiny piercing. Alright that is my bitching for today.
I am trying to understand Procreate better for my work, definitely progressing slowly, as well as painting still. Sorry for not keeping updates going for everyone that is fallowing. But I am still working on my artwork as much as I can. I will be uploading more photos for all to see and I hope you all have a wonderful weekend. :)
